((485))
I took the pills,
I took the advice.
The panic stopped.
But still, I'm not right.
Racing thoughts
and wasted time.
It's the same old story-line

((484))
You promise yourself,
just one more time.
It's been awhile,
but that's all you need.
One more cut,
to set you free

((483))
& I cant blame
anyone for cutting me,
because in the end,
I realize I’m the one
who gave them the knife

((482))
I'm so broken.
Not half full,
not half empty,
not even cracked.
I'm just broken.
I can't exist anymore.
I can barely function.
There's nothing left to me.
And I don't care

((481))
You dried my
tears when I wanted
to cry, And made
my life worth living
when I wanted to die

((480))
Her skin is the paper.
The razor's her pen.
The more tragedy unfolds,
The deeper she goes

((479))
You don't have to
tell me I'm to blame.
I figured that
all out on my own

((478))
Anger, hate,
depression, confusion.
All of these emotions and
more with no outlet.
So I’m sorry if I
take it out on you,
I really don’t mean to.
Its just another fault in my life

((477))
So, what's your addiction?
The pain, the emptiness, the high?
Maybe we all just want to feel alive.
So cut up your arms,
Restrict all your food.
And take hit, after hit, after hit

((476))
You've been waiting to break
since you woke up this morning

((475))
If I killed myself tonight,
would you remember me tomorrow?

((474))
Her friends lie to her.
Her parents just don't care.
And you wonder why she
loves her razor blade so much

((473))
Be kind to everyone.
You may not be
able to save a person,
but at least you weren't
one of the people who didn't try

((472))
And you can tell
By the red in my eyes
And the bruises on my thighs
And the knots in my hair
And the bathtub full of flies
That I'm not right now at all
Don't call the doctors
Cause they've seen it all before
They'll say just
Let Her Crash And Burn
She'll learn

((471))
You make me want to scream
& pull my hair & not in
a sexual "oh I love you" kind of way

((470))
Shot through the heart
& your to blame.
Darling; you give love a bad name

((469))
And you wonder why so many
children are ending up on the streets.
It's because they figure the
streets are more peaceful than
the yelling and screaming
in their homes

((468))
You were afraid
That I'd start my habit again
You were afraid of the blame
To take the life of a girl
& cause me all this pain

((467))
She skips breakfast.
Lies about eating lunch.
And throws up her dinner

((466))
Jack and Jill went up the hill,
To fetch a pail of slaughter.
Jack fell down the well,
That led to hell
For Jill was Satan's daughter

((465))
Misguided by the 405
cause it led me to an
alcoholic summer. I missed the
exit to your parents' house hours ago.
Red wine and the cigarettes.
Hide your bad habits underneath the patio

((464))
Every cut I make,
its not deep enough.
every thing I do,
its not good enough

((463))
I’ll write it in blood so it stains the walls.
Hand prints trail down the hall.
The razor on the floor, the cuts
on my arms. Your useless words
won’t keep me from harm

((462))
A cut here, a slash there, I can't help it
Alone in my bathroom at night,
Maybe I'll just cut a little bit,
And make sure the door's locked tight

((461))
Bleeding, hurt, torn and scarred
I don't care if you like it or not
Hiding this shit is just to hard
Look at all this pain you brought

((460))
Why must we live in a world,
Where the blood replaces tears

((459))
Love is a death sentence
and I'm being put on trial

((458))
I lay there motionless
paralyzed by my pain
completely alone in this world
with only me to blame

((457))
I take one last glance,
at my suicide note,
I slowly slide the razorblade,
down to my throat

((456))
Maybe if you'd had stopped to think
What made those scissors sink
You could have saved us both
By stopping me from taking
that extra dose

((455))
This is the end,
of my painful life,
I slash across my neck,
and drop the cold bloody knife

((454))
I'm not sorry I hurt you
But I'm sorry I was born
My heart has been broken
My spirit has been torn

((453))
I'll never stop loving you
I’ll never see you again
I think I cut to deep it wont
stop bleeding like I said
I would die for you

((452))
She put the gun to her head
and the knife to her wrist
and whispered softly,
“I’ve just been added
to the dead list”

((451))
It's raining,
It's pouring,
The Emo isn't snoring,
He went to bed,
Made his pillow red,
They found him dead
in the morning

((450))
You don’t know I slit my wrists
you'll tell me I'll be okay but I
know I wont. You can sit there as much
as you like telling me I’m special
but you will never know the pain I
hold inside with this razor blade
in my hand my hate takes over me

((449))
Skank, prostitute, whore,
she can't have life a bore.
She does these naughty things,
and rumors are what she brings.
Hand-jobs, blow-jobs, and more,
all guys know they can score.
She'd do anything, even sex,
just for some respect.
Her dreams go down the drain,
her life is full of pain.
Maybe when she's older,
her feelings won't be colder

((448))
Someone phone the paramedics
This girls heart has been put to rest
Pump her full of chemicals and
pull out the electric pads
Give her shots of medicine
Do everything you can to save her
life, she’s barely breathing

((447))
You are exactly my
brand of heroine

((446))
This is a story of a girl
who cried a river &
drowned the whole world.
But here’s a story of a guy
who held her close &
couldn’t bare to see her cry

((445))
And I swear if I could take your pain
and frame it and hang it on my wall
maybe you would never have to hurt at all
Painting pictures in red and blue
a portrait bruise just like you

((444))
So you turn up the music and try to
block out the screams. You try to ignore
your heart as it crumbles and bleeds.
The pain is to much you can't take it
anymore. And every time you turn up
the volume. You scream a little more

((443))
Your suicide attempts are
useless. God only takes the best

((442))
We talked all night about suicide
and she said, "If this is living, how
come I never feel alive?"

((441))
Class dismissed.
Homework for this evening is experiment
the body's intake of poisonous
cleansing products. A golden star
for the ones sent to the ER

((440))
No one knew the things she would hide
all the emotions bottled up inside
She couldn't keep back the urge to cry.
With each passing day, a part of her would die

((439))
I scare myself sometimes.
I think about death, but I don’t want to die.
I think about the feeling of
blood rushing down my leg.
But I made a promise,
I hope I don’t break

((438))
Once upon a time
I was a happy and optimistic little girl
Once upon a time
I was always kind and sweet to all
Once upon a time
the only cuts I had were
from the playground
Once upon a time
I was okay

((437))
Some say you're violent
& people are afraid;
I say you're silent &
holding back the pain

((436))
Hushabye baby,
you're almost dead,
you don't have a pulse,
and your pillow is red.
your family hates you,
your friends let you bleed.
sleep tight with a knife,
'cause it's all that you need.
Rockabye baby,
Broken and scarred,
You didn't know life
would be this hard

((435))
Depression is not a choice.
I really don't understand why
people ever say that.
Why would I want to be this way?

((434))
I’m a girl addicted
To all the pills I pop
I’m killing my family
So tonight will be
my final way to stop

((433))
No more bleeding and crying
No more trying to hide
Because now you all can see
That I was already dead inside

((432))
Miracles have suddenly
completely ceased to exist
And darkness overcomes her
She no longer seems to resist

((431))
Help me
To feel alive
Please, I beg
I don’t want to die
Save me from
This terrifying doom
It’s coming to me
That’s safe to assume

((430))
Addiction: a curse, a growing
pain in which none can escape
Addiction: a craving for
what is an escape, and
brings the world where
things are what we wish
Addiction: a way to step out
of reality and into a dream
Addiction: the end; our demise
Addiction: a flame that consumes all
lives and within reach destroys you
Addiction: it takes one try
until your hooked for life

((429))
Blade, sweet blade
Slicing through my skin
Blade, sweet blade
Lets do it all again
Blood, sweet blood
Dripping from my vein
Blood, sweet blood
Numbing all my pain
Death, sweet death
Come to where I lay
Death, sweet death
Take my breath away

((428))
I cry myself to sleep
“Your pathetic!” my mind screams
And as my tears fall I whisper
“I need someone to hold me tight”

((427))
So she said, "Did you know my hearts
bleeding for you?" & he
said, "Do you mind,
your getting blood on my shoes."

((426))
She's got stars in her eyes
& a bruise on her tongue.
Bite marks from the things
she never says. That's me.
The girl with the world on
her mind & silence in her mouth

((425))
She’s tired of crying herself to sleep,
She’s tired of cutting her wrists so deep,
She’s tired of no one knowing
these feelings in which she keep,
She writes a note, The
last one she ever wrote,
She ties the rope way up high,
And there she hangs,
Soon to die

((424))
Some people take chances
Some people take pills

((423))
I can’t stand the pain
I can’t make it go away

((422))
She's gone, she's fried,
she's dead inside
But that won't stop her, no;
She's taken her pills
and shot down her pride
And her death is beginning to show

((421))
My heart lies in pieces
Scattered on the floor
Bleeding never ceases
Aching to the core

((420))
She takes out her mirror
And cries at the sight
Brings her pillow nearer
And holds onto it tight

((419))
The blood flows from her wrist
her very last razorblade kiss

((418))
Don’t worry about me, I’ll be fine
I’ll just take this razor, and bury the
pain straight into my veins

((417))
Self-injury is a sign
of distress not madness.
We should be congratulated
on having found a way of surviving

((416))
As I cut my arm
With this blood-stained knife,
Blood pours out as I cut deeper
The cutting addiction is my life

((415))
I let the memories
spill away like the
blood running red. My
only comfort so spill
my blood with each
cut across my wrist
this is for you my love

((414))
So take this knife
and cut my wrists
I wish this pain didn’t exist
So slit my wrists
Life’s a sick game with
way to many twists

((413))
Burning soul
Lost
Out of control
Obsession
Depression

((412))
The cold concrete
cuts against her back
and her spirit spills with blood
onto the pavement
hands tied so tight behind her neck
and a silence falls,
everything changes
and everything dies
to you, nothing’s alive.
I guess you've gotten more
than you might have wanted

((411))
Cutting is so addictive,
you think its all just for attention
but its not, its because I’m sad
I think no one even cares
I don’t want these scars anymore
No one is tying to help me
Go away, leave me
with my razor blade

((410))
Should I cut or take the pain?
The dripping blood
or just plain shame?
The sharpened knife or falling tears?
The morning scars or all the fears?
is he worth it, is it true? Or
is he already over you?

((409))
She sits and cries, painful
tears fill her eyes
silent screams and cries of pain
arms full of cuts and scars of shame
alone in this world a blade as a friend
to stop her pain to make it all end
she lies in her regret spills of blood drop.
This is her way to make it all stop

((408))
Take this blade
and drag it across.
I am nothing.
The deeper I go,
The better I feel.
Take this blade
and press it down.
I bleed so pretty.
Too bad I’m not.
Tell I’m beautiful.
Take this towel and
make the bleeding stop.
I feel so alone.
No one knows where I am.
I don’t matter to anyone.
You are the one
that left me like this

((407))
Yeah, he’s the
one my Mascara
bleeds for and the
one my razorblade loves

((406))
We're all looking for something
to take away the pain

((405))
And though the news
was rather sad well
I just had to laugh.
I saw the photograph.
He blew his mind out
in a car. He didn't
notice that the lights
had changed color.
A crowd of people
stood and stared,
they'd all seen his face before

((404))
She didn't even
write a suicide note,
No one would care
enough to read it.
She never told anyone where
she was going or if she'd be back,
No one would care if
she didn't return anyway

((403))
I'm dying from my own disease.
I'm a villain, I'm a
murderer, I am the victim

((402))
She covers her arm to hide the scars;
She remembers someone saying,
"No one cares who you are."
She bought a ticket
& came to the dance;
She gave socializing
one last chance.
She sat in the back,
from everyone she fled;
She cut up her arm
& cried as she bled.
People stayed away as
she bled on the floor,
Tears ran down her
face as she cut some more.
"What is she doing?"
" How long has she cried,"
They asked as they watched this
Innocent suicide

((401))
She was too pretty and
much too depressed. They
saw the beauty and over
looked the mess

((400))
Now when you see her,
she'll have her razorblade kissed wrists
covered, Tear - stained eyes hidden,
And it's all because you made her
hate who she was

((399))
Teenage Romance
Is nothing but a pretty picture
My wrists can be the canvas
and with this razorblade
as my paintbrush
We'll paint the prettiest picture yet
I promise you, baby

((398))
You're not like the others guys.
You really hurt me
and I’m trying not to show it
but the cuts speak for themselves

((397))
Tonight I will poison myself
without it becoming known
I’ll rest my head on a shelf
while I make a grave my own

((396))
My stereo is blasting, my eyeliner is
beginning to smear,
I can barely hear.
My tears are forming
in the corner of my eyes so just shut
up and let me slowly slip

((395))
Take me away;
I'm gonna hurt somebody!
Take me away right now

((394))
She's crying, she's breaking,
she's lying, she's faking,
she's hated & taunted
she's wanted & flaunted
she's a puppet on a string,
an angel without a wing,
she's every girl you want her to be
but she only wants her self esteem

((393))
Diamonds in her eyes and
a knife through her back

((392))
Gorgeous eyes shine suicide

((391))
Another burn on my hip
Another scar on my wrist
No other girl could
love you like this

((390))
The scars run deep

((389))
In your tears and
in your blood, in
your fire and
in your flood,
I hear you laugh,
I heard you sing,
"I wouldn't change a single thing."

((388))
Surgeons make incisions
what a mess they've made
Tearing at my skin
leaving knives in my brain
Stabbing at the voices
making me insane

((387))
Popping pills to
chase the dreams
And sipping booze
to ease the scream

((386))
And I drowned all my dreams
in a bottle of vodka.
Bitter & stinging,
I died here tonight.
I lose my heart in
a bottle of whiskey.
Let the poison
dispose of it properly

((385))
& she sits alone
crying on her bed
wishing & wondering
what on earth she did
to deserve this pain

((384))
Emotion is my middle
name. I lie in bed and
listen to the rain, put
happy thoughts inside
my head, but I find
instead the hurting
words you said

((383))
Why don't you just watch
me completely fall apart
right in front of you
cause I cant look at you
without seeing the
past, & what we had so
thanks for that & thanks
for not helping me up
when I’m completely broken

((382))
Pain engraves
a deeper memory

((381))
Sex, drugs, & razorblades

((380))
Sick of the pain
I’m sick of sorrow
sick of today
I’m sick of tomorrow
I’m addicted to the
misery in my head
better stop before I’m dead

((379))
And this one last
bullet you mention
Is my one last shot at redemption
Cause I know to live you
must give your life away

((378))
I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
cause the dreams in which I’m dying
are the best I’ve ever had

((377))
Love will be the
Death of us all

((376))
I carved your name
across my eyelids.
You pray for rain,
I pray for blindness

((375))
She's full of pain.
her deep sorrow is
driving her insane.
she wants to scream
she wants to yell
but she must never
admit how hard she fell.
So as the sun begins to rise,
she wipes her eyes,
pastes on a smile on that looks
genuine & once again
she pretends that everything is fine

((374))
We write their names on our wrists
and they will never notice us
to them we don't exist

((373))
Her arms are bleeding
Around her scars.
And in her fingers,
A bloody razor

((372))
My wounds will find
the salt around the rim
& the sting won't help this
bleeding heart forget you

((371))
Nothing is more
depressing than having
the whole world want
your life and being
more than willing to give it away

((370))
Oh baby just admit, if
both my wrists were slit,
you'd bandage them
with style and grace

((369))
Her eyes glistens when she smiles,
& her smile lights up the room,
but when she’s all by herself,
she’s buried in her gloom,
& the blood stains her sleeves

((368))
When you're scratching
at your scars,
I'll remember who you are

((367))
Heartache temporary.
Bullets ONLY stop your
blood. PAIN will live
on and on in everyone.
- "Change The World
(Lost Ones)" by Anberlin

((366))
Don’t think this way of death will hide
Like a blade, it will stain

((365))
Fake it, till you make it
When you don't make it,
just grab the razor

((364))
Incy, Wincy razor,
Scratch across my arm.
Out let the blood rush,
& leave me sitting in harm.
Then comes the tear,
That runs down my cheek.
Incy, wincy, razor,
Everything seems so bleak.
You fill me up with good pain,
So tomorrow I'll see you again

((363))
Another poem, another line,
another girl pretending she's fine,
Another hour, another day, she
wishes she could get away,
Another heartbreak, another tear,
another excuse she doesn't wanna hear
Another paper, another pen, she
writes she wants to be strong again,
Another story, another lie,
another night that she will cry,
Another band, another song,
another days passed, slowly gone,
Another scream, another doubt, '
"Kick me while I'm down''
to him she'd shout
Another forced smile, another broken heart,
Just another girl wishing life would restart

((362))
Here I stand, empty hands,
wishing my wrists were bleeding

((361))
Feeling claustrophobic like the
walls are closing in, blood stains on
my hands and I don’t
know where I’ve been

((360))
Sharp razor- $5.00
Towel- $10.00
Lock- $6.00
Laying on your bathroom
floor bleeding- Priceless

((359))
She's killing herself every passing day
cutting, throwing up
her food, popping pills
But she wears a smile on her face
instead of breaking down
Because that's just the
kind of person she is

((358))
Cover up the blood;
hide your wrists;
and no one will ever know

((357))
Emo Guys are hot.
Just seeing the bloody scars
on their wrists turn me on

((356))
You call cutting a mistake, I call it
a way to remember the mistakes

((355))
Why didn't you just hand me the stupid razor instead of breaking my heart and
knowing that I would cut myself

((354))
I feel like the world has turned its back on me
So right now my only friends
are the floor and the Razors

((353))
If the TV didn't want you to cut yourself
with a razor then why do they sell
the damn things on TV

((352))
Everyone smiles with that
invisible gun to their head

((351))
You'll never know how many times I've cried.
How many cuts I hide.
How many times I wished I would die

((350))
Lines on my wrist
cracks in my heart
when you left me
my world fell apart

((349))
We may die from medication
but at least we killed the pain

((348))
Pretty little girl can't see the world.
pretty little girl all locked up.
pretty little girl has to be perfect.
pretty little girl overwhelmed by everything.
pretty little girl never does anything right.
pretty little girl killed herself tonight

((347))
If life's plan is to make me
suffer, then mission
fucking accomplished

((346))
So she hurts herself once more
Because life is just too much
for her to handle

((345))
All she wants is to be skinny
So she makes herself throw up once more
Praying nobody heard her coughs

((344))
She sat with her friends during a movie
A movie where a girl cuts
Her friends were disgusted
While she sat & watched
Knowing what was under her sleeve

((343))
Hands are shaking
Forced vomit one more time
She's literally dying to be skinny

((342))
I will disappoint you.
I am everything I wish I wasn't,
and nothing I say I am

((341))
She's suicidal. It's obvious enough.
They have all noticed the way
she stares into space
Like she’s searching for something
to take her away.
But nothing ever comes and
that reality just pushes
her to make one more cut and take one
extra pill. Maybe this time she'll be the
winner in the suicide game

((340))
The hardest kind of depression to treat
Is the one you can't see
They're the smiling ones
The ones who look perfect
The ones who are laughing
The ones who are dying inside
The ones who seem perfectly happy
Those are the ones who need help the most
Because you can't tell when they're sad

((339))
& as her eyes are foggy with stress and tears, as she grabs the razor her biggest fear, & she writes with her last drop of blood: No one cares

((338))
She looked into the mirror
and with the last cut of her razor
Took the sweet blood from her vein
And wrote delicately on the mirror
"Am I pretty enough now?"

((337))
Scars can never be healed only hidden
having them on the outside is just a way
of hiding the ones within

((336))
Her words on the mirror
can’t be much clearer
"I'm nothing"
As she was bleeding
She died with the feeling
The freedom of cutting

((335))
::One cut to feel the tingling pain: two to
get her through the rain: three cuts
to feel her skin bleed: four to realize
life wasn’t meant to be: five cuts and
she blinked back the tears: six to forget
all her fears: seven cuts as she
bit her tongue: eight she realizes
its all gone: nine cuts as she fell
back on her bed: ten she realizes
she’s better off dead::

((334))
I'm careless & I’m cruel
but I’m still easily bruised.
I’m tired of lying about it.
I’m not bullet proof

((333))
She asks herself
"Is this really who
you want to be,
The freak with the
razors hidden in her room
and scars on her arms
that she has to hide daily?"
and she answers herself
"I'll do whatever the hell I can to
get rid of that person.
She's not me anymore, and
she will never be again."

((332))
You gotta mouth like a razor-blade.
It cuts so deep. So kiss
my wrists my neck
and give me eternal sleep

((331))
She's the girl that tries
so hard to throw the
razor away, but
keeps going back to it,
every time the scars fade away

((330))
And if I bleed, I'll bleed
knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you,
I'll wake without you there

((329))
Cut the skin to the bone
Fall asleep all alone
Hear your voice in the dark
Lose myself in your eyes
Choke my voice, say goodnight
As the world falls apart

((328))
Scars.
A reminder
of reality

((327))
& I'm screaming through
the troubles that the
drugs don't solve

((326))
Another poem; another line
another girl pretending she's fine

((325))
I’m a tear drop away from crying;
and a few shots away from dying

((324))
You saw me bleeding on the floor - this time in silence, this time I win. Now you'll feel my pain

((323))
Anorexia:
You'll be dead before
you're skinny enough

((322))
So pop that pill
and put another fake smile on your face
just because the sun rises tomorrow
doesn’t mean you’ll make it through today

((321))
My heart is broken
torn in two
my world fell apart
all because of you

((320))
Cut your wrists like cheap coupons
& then say death was on sale

((319))
On the outside I’m crying, still
barely hanging out but on the inside
I’m bleeding, already gone

((318))
Scars are souvenirs
you never lose

((317))
Cuts become wounds
Wounds become scars
Scars become memories
Memories become reality
Reality becomes life

((316))
He was the only good thing she had
in her terrible life. He was the one
who saved her from her knife

((315))
I am just giving up and shutting down.
I am just so sick of thinking my head is broken.
I am fucking lonely

((314))
Its like being hit by a truck over and over again
But you stay in the road cause
when you aren't being hit
The road is the best place in the
entire fucking world to be

((313))
Love me, use me, & rip me apart

((312))
& now when you see her,
she'll have her razorblade kissed wrists
covered, Tear-stained eyes hidden,
And its all because you made her
hate who she was

((311))
She's a human traffic accident, and everybody's slowing down to look at the wreckage

((310))
Lighters, Razors, and Long sleeves.
These are a few of my favorite things

((309))
Pink ribbon scars,
that wont let me forget,
I tried so hard to cleanse these regrets

((308))
One cut for the way I look
One cut for the way you looked at her
One cut for eating
One cut for throwing it all back up
One cut for the drugs
One cut for the drinks
One cut for everytime I still breathe

((307))
The roses are dead
the violets are blue
I wanna die
and that’s just what I’ll do

((306))
She slashed away the pain,
until her wrist was numb.
She felt no pain.
this is who she'd become

((305))
Throw up your insecurities
Bleed out your dreams

((304))
These wounds wont seem to
heal, this pain is just to real

((303))
No one sees my silent tears,
No one hears my secret fears,
I cry alone, and nobody hears

((302))
You think I’m so tough,
but I just never let you see me cry

((301))
Life is a mystery,
the only solution is Death

((300))
I'm F.I.N.E.:
Fucked up
Insecure
Nervous
Emotional

((299))
My heart lays bleeding on the floor surrounded
by the bloodstain fallen from my blade

((298))
Anger is one step to depression,
as depression is to suicide

((297))
So let me be your blade
I’ll be the dullest I can be
that way when you cut
you won't have scars
just the memories of me

((296))
I'll bleed until there's no blood left

((295))
Just look at her
she is beautiful
you would never know she is falling apart
day by day; she is getting weaker

((294))
I am gone.
the person you see
isn't the real me
the real me gave
up a long time ago
she couldn't take the
constant pain anymore

((293))
It's kind of sick the way
I think about it all the time
I'm a sick little girl with blood on
her wrists and a crack in her heart
That just wishes death would
come sooner rather than later

((292))
Roses are red.
Violets are blue.
Sugar is sweet
And so are you.
But the roses are wilting
And the violets are dead.
The sugar bowl's empty
And my wrists are stained red

((291))
I'm not o-fucking-kay

((290))
I'm not scared of dying,
I’m scared of no one caring

((289))
She was sad but refused to cry
Slit her wrists and wrote
''I Tried''

((288))
After a year in therapy,
my psychiatrist said
to me, "maybe life
isn’t for everyone."

((287))
Stop the world; I wanna get off

((286))
Pain is weakness leaving the body

((285))
Tired and bleeding,
I lift up my fist,
as I pick up my knife,
and aim for my wrist.
the darkness is heavy,
the madness lies thick,
I lie on the floor tired and sick

((284))
Close your eyes. Fall asleep.
Cry the pain away. Sadly,
when you wake up
it'll still hurt the next day

((283))
She finally lets go of her
fake smile & the tears
slowly roll down her face as
she whispers in the mirror,
"I don't want to be me"

((282))
& the blade wins once again

((281))
Is she broken? Maybe.
Does it hurt? Like crazy

((280))
The fragile girl who sits
alone in her room and
draws such deadly
pictures on her
wrists, is the girl
that everyone thinks
has such a happy life

((279))
She hides her tears
behind a painted smile
No one knows the
pain she’s going through
This is her life everyday,
no one knowing,
yet no one caring.
She cries herself to
sleep, her wrists cut.
Yet everyday she
somehow makes it through

((278))
& the cuts heal & the scars fade
but the pain remains.
The tears freeze upon her face
as she looks down at her wrists,
it wasn't supposed to end like this

((277))
It’s really hard to dry your eyes
when everywhere you turn
there’s another reason to cry

((276))
The wounds will heal,
And the pain will subside.
And the scars will go away,
That you tried so hard to hide.
But the memories will never fade.
And the proof always show.
The lines upon my face,
Tell all you need to know

((275))
I'm like a broken record
I’ve got a fucking
needle scratching me

((274))
Don't tell me you know what I’m
going though. Because you
could never understand the
beginning of my problems

((273))
There's nothing more depressing than
having everything and still being sad

((272))
She’s the girl with her middle
finger in the air - because for
the first time she just
doesn't fucking care

((271))
I’m not broken just slightly damaged

((270))
Anyway you figure it, we all
die soon enough. The trick
is to be the first

((269))
Broken Bruised Forgotten Sore.
To Fucked Up To Care Anymore

((268))
Life Is Like A Bed Of Nails
It Hurts No Matter Where You step

((267))
When I Am Queen
I Will Exist
With Perfect Scars
Upon My Wrists

((266))
I want you to be free,
don’t worry about me,
& just like the movies,
we'll play out our last scene,
you wont cry, I wont scream

((265))
Take a razor,
Cut my skin,
It's time for this,
To finally end

((264))
Telling a depressed person to be happy;
is like telling a cancer patient
to cure themselves

((263))
A promise is a promise
At least that's what they say
Well welcome to reality
They're broken everyday

((262))
"Pain is beautiful. When you feel pain,
you know that you're alive. "
-Criss Angel

((261))
See the pretty scars on her arm? They’re
to keep track of how many times she screws up

((260))
I’m not depressed;; I just hate everything.
I’m not a horrible person;;
I just let everyone down.
I’m not an outcast;; everyone just hates me.
I’m not in love;; I just constantly think of him.
I’m not a cutter;; I just have to slice my wrists.
I’m not a mistake;; I’m just not
supposed to be here.
I’m not suicidal;; I just want to die

((259))
Who is going to
be there to heal the
wounds she carved
in herself

((258))
Suck in my stomach.
pinch my waist.
spend hours touching up my ugly face.
All these things I fucking do
don’t make a difference.
I’m not perfect enough for you

((257))
Death is life's way of saying "you're fired".
Suicide is your way of saying "I quit"

((256))
So much pain. So many nights, so many tears
I've cried. So many cut's I've had to hide

((255))
These bandages cover more than my cuts & bruises, these bandages cover
my regrets & mistakes

((254))
As I hold back the tears and push down the blade the blood begins to show and there goes my pain

((253))
Close my eyes and count to ten and hope that everything will be wonderful again

((252))
You’re talking to the girl who has sobbed, cried, yelled, screamed, cut & has made it through it all

((251))
Take this razor and sign your name across my wrist. So everyone will know who left me like this

((250))
And I’m screaming every hurtful
word that I can think of.
And what’s killing me is that
they don’t hurt you at all.
Because you don’t care
what I say, you never did

((249))
I’m often silent --
when I’m screaming inside

((248))
10 shaking fingers trace my
9 fading scars. They run over the
8 new open wounds. Within
7 minutes, I start losing my sight, and
6 times I almost blacked out.
5 more minutes and I know I’ll be gone. The
4 pillows propping me up start to fall.
3 tears slip down my cold cheeks from
2 red swollen eyes filled with tears and pain.
1 life taken, forever to be missed

((247))
I know what it’s like to want to die and
how it hurts to just smile, how you
try to fit in but you can’t, how you
hurt yourself on the outside to try
to kill the things on the inside

((246))
When you attempt suicide and you fail,
it’s like this big disappointment because
it’s just one more thing you can’t do right

((245))
Little miss perfect was flawless as she
seemed though one day she was found
in her room with a locked door.
A rusty razor. A towel stained with red.
A folded note. A broken mirror. and she
lays there dead. Their emotions tangle
the room begins to swirl.
She was -- mommy's perfect angel
& daddy's little girl

((244))
Dear diary,
he's killing me

((243))
She’s trying desperately to survive.
All she wants is a reason to stay alive

((242))
Once upon a time,
A girl offered everything she had to a boy,
And it just wasn't good enough

((241))
Pretty pictures on her wrist
depressing thoughts on her
mind. Screaming her silent
tears. Everyone believed her
when she said "I’m fine"

((240))
We're all looking for something
to take away the pain

((239))
She’s become self-destructive.
Hope your proud of yourself now

((238))
Hide the guns, and dull the knives. She's had enough of it, and it's over tonight

((237))
Please don’t act like you care you don’t care, I know you don’t, you've watched me destroy myself for too long now, if you really cared, you would have tried to stop it by now

((236))
With her hair pulled back and her eyes drowned. The makeup running down her face and silver in her hand. She realizes slowly that no matter how much she hopes. There is no escape

((235))
Stop. just stop. I know your lying to me.
I don't think you realize that
you're killing me inside

((234))
You know, you're pathetic. You can't
expect to get by in this world when
you already gave up on yourself

((233))
I hear the sirens, and I wonder
who won't get a second chance

((232))
My stereo is blasting, my eyeliner is
beginning to smear, I can barely hear.
My tears are forming in the corner
of my eyes so just shut up
and let me slowly slip

((231))
Sometimes its easier to say you're mad
then to admit you're actually hurt

((230))
Written on my wrists in a form of art
just to show myself how much
I’ve broken myself apart

((229))
All those increasing scars.
Have become my prison bars

((228))
One cut, two cut, three cut, four,
drops of red splatter on the floor.
five cut, six cut, seven cut, eight,
don't try to save her cuz it's too late

((227))
Blood still stains my hands.
Sharpening my senses on the outside

((226))
Teardrops fall from those pretty little eyes
kind of hard to move on when you only told
lies. She’s breaking down, everyone’s fading
its been so long & she’s tired of waiting

((225))
Just look at her
she is beautiful
you would never know she is falling apart
day by day; she is getting weaker

((224))
Scream Until The Mirror Breaks
Scream Until Your Lungs Are Black
Scream Until Your Bleeding Blue
Scream Until No One Can Hear You

((223))
Like a black fog
This pain blankets me
Invading my very soul
Blinded I no longer see
Like an empty void
Creeping into my heart
So hard to hang on
Movement tears me apart
Trying hard to pretend
With every waking hour
Pain it tortures me
Letting it over power
Erasing normal thoughts
This overwhelming grief
Intensity burns to the core
Death the only release

((222))
I have a perfectly broken heart
and perfectly cut scars on my wrists

((221))
It's a good year for a murder. She's praying to Jesus, she's pulling the trigger

((220))
A smoking gun in hand, now don't
you realize what you've done

((219))
Walls are falling, churches burning, women ravaged, children crying. Flesh is tearing, some still fighting in this world of misery

((218))
I bite my lip when you come around,
because blood in my mouth is better
than tears on the ground

((217))
Suicide is not the love of death,
but its the fear of living

((216))
You're looking skinny like a model
with your eyes all painted black
just keep going to the bathroom
always say you'll be right back
well it takes one to know one kid
I think you've got it bad

((215))
Heart tears in two
Pain slicing through
Screaming is heard

((214))
Overdose and then
indulge until you die.
Pondering, we all ask
the question why.
Broken home, and
then abandoned by your
dad. And we are
left the only family
that you've ever had

((213))
Perfect Girl
with the perfect kiss
and the perfect scars
on her wrist

((212))
Have you ever laid in bed
hoping that you'll wake up
in the emergency room--
hearing the words,
"she isn’t gonna make it."

((211))
Cut your wrist. Fake a smile.
Make a fist. Think awhile

((210))
There's a sick little suicide
in all that we do

((209))
You're like a bad addiction,
running through my veins,
you're the habit that I crave

((208))
Cut out my fear,
Throw up my sins

((207))
I don't want to be as skinny
as the girls in the magazines.
I want to be even skinnier

((206))
Your perfect little girl dropped
a grade on her report card.
Your perfect little girl yelled at you last night.
Your perfect little girl talked back to you again.
Your perfect little girl painted her nails black.
Your perfect little girl lied to you all her life.
Your perfect little girl cries herself to sleep.
Your perfect little girl slits her
wrists 'till she bleeds.
Your perfect little girl dated before sixteen.
Your perfect little girl was broken by a boy.
Your perfect little girl doesn't go to church.
Your perfect little girl hates you.
Your perfect little girl has given up on life.
Your perfect little girl had a tantrum today.
Your perfect little girl wants to run away.
Your perfect little girl has no real friends.
Your perfect little girl thinks she's overweight.
Your perfect little girl hasn't let you dry her tears.
Your perfect little girl disobeys you.
Your perfect little girl hates the world.
Your perfect little girl is hated by the world.
Your perfect little girl says bad things about you.
Your perfect little girl is very unhappy.
Your perfect little girl tried to commit suicide.
Your perfect little girl has become a disgrace.
But at the end of the day,
she's still your perfect little girl

((205))
She looks down at her arms..
all cut up & red each time
she looks at them, she sees what
[used to be] and wishes
she was dead - -
and as she touches & looks at each scar
she remembers his game `& that near'
each [scar] made a
letter that `spelt out his name'

((204))
I hope you choke
on every pill

((203))
I'm gonna smile like nothing's wrong,
talk like everything's perfect,
act like it's just a dream,
and pretend he's not hurting me

((202))
The girl who seemed unbreakable - broke
The girl who seemed so strong - crumbled
The girl who always laughed it off - cried
The girl who would never stop trying
- finally gave up & quit

((201))
Yeah.
That’s what you are.
My favorite scar

((200))
She's just a  failure
waiting to happen

((199))
I will be your accident
if you will be my ambulance
& I will be your screech & crash
if you will be my crutch & cast
& I will be your one more time
if you will be my one last chance

((198))
Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave you

((197))
I took the pills
I took the advice
The panic stopped
But still, I'm not right
Racing thoughts and wasted time
It's the same old story-line

((196))
You may think she's
strong & happy but you
don’t know the half
of it. Each day she cries
& thinks about suicide
how’s that for strong
and happy?

((195))
I asked him one day "why all the drugs?"
he told me then and there,
"I find that life is easier when it's all a blur."

((194))
Mommy & daddy got the best cocaine.
Ritalin's never gonna taste the same.
Twenty four hours on an empty brain.
My fingers on the trigger & your in my way

((193))
Take the glass against my wrist
tell me you love me
as I lay bleeding
on the floor

((192))
& so the story ends
With her sitting on her knees in his driveway
Screaming and crying his name
As he slowly goes inside; closing the door

((191))
GORGEOUS eyes GORGEOUS smile;
he made her life worth the while
a BROKEN soul a BROKEN heart;
he made her world fall apart

((190))
Don't throw me around like
glass, I’ll fall for you &
then I’ll break

((189))
There’s only so much pain
One teenage girl's heart can take.
& you my dear
Have exceeded the limits

((188))
Love me gently with a chainsaw and take the glass against your wrists. You know I’m your worst nightmare. Oh how you love my bloody kiss

((187))
She was so fucking perfect on the outside.
no wrinkles in her clothes, not a hair out of place.
But underneath her eighty dollar jean jacket
lie a patchwork of gashes
that seemed to never end.
But nobody ever would have guessed

((186))
No one is beautiful;
when they would die
to be anyone else

((185))
She sits down and sobs.
Then picks up the razor
and takes the pain
Credit

((184))
She stares at the razor.
the perfect shine.
it has every appeal she wants
Credit

((183))
Everyday she fights for her life.
everyday she fights to
not bring the blood.
everyday she fights to stay alive

((182))
People beg and plead
to have me stop.
but its not that simple.
you cant just put away the
razors and be done with it
Credit

((181))
Her letters say I’m sorry
but her wrists say it’s all you fault

((180))
She gets on the scale.
looks at her weight.
goes to the mirror
pinches her fat
and says 'that’s what
you have to lose.'
Credit

((179))
Laugh it off.
joke about it.
you don’t see how
much it hurts her
Credit

((178))
Shattered hearts & broken glass
that’s what little girls are made of

((177))
Your lies leave scars on my wrists

((176))
& if you were choking, you know
I wouldn’t even flinch. I wouldn’t
dare to move a muscle, for it would
be a magical sight. maybe even
a Kodak moment. after all, you
always were the flawless one

((175))
Mommy's little girl is
not the girl she used to be.
she does crack behind her school
and poses for magazines.
she doesn't know the difference
between sex and sin.
but mommy's little girl,
would never give in

((174))
The blade to my wrist,
My head to the wall.
And since I slipped on your love,
All I could do was fall.
But now you're gone,
And I'm starting to see,
That without your love,
There isn't a me

((173))
My eyes hurt from crying,
my heart aches from trying,
my wrist burns from cutting &
in the end. I still have nothing

((172))
My body,
My soul,
My mind,
My SUICIDE

((171))
You bite your lip; you keep pretending
that you're made of stone.
You never let it show, but darling,
everybody knows

((170))
Sleep, eat, own, fuck, abandoned
like a bombed out conversation.
Phone, TV, sweets, suck,
I pledge allegiance to
the small talk nation

((169))
Attention center stage,
we've got a suicidal star.
Another tragic case,
no more than a broken heart

((168))
Maybe I'm dark,
but I'm not goth,
just because I cry,
I'm not emo,
and baby I can scream,
but I'm no prep.
Just because these arms are scarred,
who’s to say its self harm?

((167))
& she has bite marks on her
tongue from all the things
she never said

((166))
In just a short amount of time,
I’ve learned that promises are worthless
and when you carve things
in your skin it only leaves scars

((165))
She watched the day pass
not hour by hour, but
pain by pain

((164))
A heart for every time you made me
A star for everytime I cried
A cut for evertime I was raped
And a tear for everytime
I was hurt inside

((163))
Talkings just a waste of breath,
and livings just a waste of death

((162))
Words hurt. Truth heals.
Sometimes both kill

((161))
Sometimes I put myself in danger,
just to see who cares
enough to stop me

((160))
Some things are meant to be undone
some words are meant to be unspoken
some stories are meant to be unheard
some hearts are meant to be broken

((159))
Pound my knuckles
hard against the floor,
my head against the wall,
but I did this to myself

((158))
Her tears are falling
& her wrists are bleeding

((157))
Face down across your floor,
it seems I've been here before

((156))
Everyone smiles with that
invisible gun to their head

((155))
Waiting for one scar to fade,
So I can make another

((154))
Love hurts. boys lie.
friends stab. people die.
parents yell. you always try.
you’re never good enough.
and you don’t know why

((153))
You see her as unbreakable,
but believe it or not,
she does hurt and she does cry
and somehow
she's never satisfied

((152))
My wrist is my playground
And my blade is the only ride

((151))
Razors. pills. guns.
And you all think
I’m safer in my room

((150))
Lets slit our wrists &
burn down something beautiful

((149))
Suicide never
solves anything

((148))
Don’t judge a book by its cover
nor a person by their scars

((147))
I hurt myself
so you can’t

((146))
Don't blame the gun for shooting
the bullet through her head, blame
those who shot the words instead

((145))
One smile hides
a thousand tears

((144))
Have you ever been alone
in a crowded room?

((143))
Go ahead. Kiss her.
I hope she bites your lip
And you choke on the blood

((142))
Too young to die
Too old to believe in promises

((141))
It is not okay.
No one understands

((140))
Your name looks pretty in red
I say as the razor falls from my hand

((139))
Kiss me baby,
so I can finally taste all
those lies you feed me

((138))
When your left with only a bullet
I’ll bring the trigger and
a promise to pull it

((137))
I could die at any moment
The tragedy is that I don't

((136))
Ill stop stabbing.
When you stop screaming

((135))
She strikes a pose but she dies inside
nobody knows she's a beautiful suicide

((134))
& I’m the kind of girl who keeps making
mistakes & I’m constantly getting
them shoved in my face

((133))
I’m not crying because I’m weak.
I’m crying because I’m so damn tired
of being too strong

((132))
Promises are just
lies with pretty
ribbons wrapped
around them

((131))
Miss your touch,
I miss your smell;
miss you so much that
my life is hell.
I miss the good times &
all the things that we've done
& I even miss the little things,
like you calling me hun

((130))
She has no one to turn to
A f.a.d.i.n.g hope of suicide

((129))
My heart is that crack in the sidewalk
that you walk on every day

((128))
Living a life,
behind a mask of lies.
if you listen closely,
my razorblade cries

((127))
The last bitter pill glides down her throat
Replaying those words: “I hope you choke”
Shedding her tears with a wish to die fast
All because forever didn’t seem to last

((126))
There’s no beauty
in bleeding Mascara

((125))
She would cry herself to
sleep at night as she whispered
to her pillow while wiping
away her tears, why does heartbreak
have to happen to me,
when its my biggest fear

((124))
She cuts more and more
Her arm was full of lines
Her artistic way of doing with
Instead of complaints and whines

((123))
Mirror mirror on the wall,
who's the biggest fool of all?
it must be the girl who
can't stop crying.
or maybe it's the girl
who kept on trying

((122))
With this blade in hand
I think of everything
I cant understand
I wanna take the next step
But my fears catch up with me
Put it slowly to the ground
I realize I'm safe and sound
This can only happen
in my deep sleep
Only in my dreams

((121))
You know I'm changing and it's
breaking your heart.
There's nothing you can
do, except watch me fall apart

((120))
I don't need a reason to kill myself
I need a reason not to

((116))
If it makes you happy, then I'm fine.
If it makes you sleep at night,
I am not suicidal.
If it helps you stay ignorant,
the scars that lace my body are
not proof of how much
self-hatred boils inside me.
If it keeps you from abandoning
me, I'm not crazy

((115))
Just another scratch on his list
just another scar on my wrist

((114))
Heartbreak baby
is half the fun
You bring the bullets,
I'll bring the guns
Take ten steps now
turn and draw
I shoot from the hip
then watch you fall

((113))
Just give it up girl,
he'll love you then.
You just want a kiss but
he wants you to undress.
Give up girl, romance is dead.
You want to cuddle,
he wants to go to bed

((112))
Sick of crying
tired of trying
yeah I'm smiling
but inside I'm dying

((111))
I'm alright.
I'm gonna make it.
Even if I gotta fake it
I'm alright
I'm gonna make it.
Even if I gotta break it

((110))
In ONE day
5,388 youths are arrested.
4,219 teenagers get a sexually
transmitted disease.
3,610 teens are assaulted.
80 are raped.
2,861 teens drop out of school.
1,377 teenagers become mothers.
1,106 teenage girls get an abortion.
1,000 adolescents begin drinking alcohol.
500 adolescents begin using drugs.
420 children are arrested for drug use.
6 teens commit suicide
THE TRUTH HURTS

((109))
Cause these scars run so deep
it's been hard,
but I have to believe

((108))
The sharp edge of you
cuts my voice when
I scream your name

((107))
I started out alone
& in the end
that's where I'll be.
Like a star of a
really sad story

((106))
He shot her.
He pushed her to the floor.
He killed her.
He didn't love her anymore

((105))
Someday I hope that you'll
take me off your life support
so that I could finally die

((104))
The problem with secrets -
like misery,
they love company

((103))
Here's to you;
hope that someday
you'll realize
I really did care

((102))
You cut like you've got something to lose.
Come over here and I'll show you
What real damage looks like

((101))
Has anybody ever felt this way?
Has anybody been ripped apart?
Anybody give everything
to the one they love?
Am I the only one left behind?
Am I the only one who hates goodbyes?
God I know this can't go on forever

((100))
When it comes to love,
two minus one equals
absolutely nothing

((99))
You know, you're pathetic.
You can't expect to get by in
this world when you
already gave up on yourself

((98))
I had no one to look up to,
so I looked down on myself

((97))
He's got the prettiest eyes
to go with those deceitful lies

((96))
She keeps all her thoughts in her head,
Because in this world,
no one really cares anymore

((95))
I play with razors
I fool around with knives
I cut myself
to feel alive

((94))
I smile to make you happy.
I laugh so you think you're funny.
I cry for you to comfort me.
& I cut to make sure
I still have real feelings

((93))
You looked straight in my eyes
& no ones ever done that before

((92))
I keep telling myself there’s
a reason I'm alive
a twisted consolation for
all the tears Ive cried

((91))
I can walk around with a pretty face on
Even when I'm black and blue
What's the point in telling everybody
I'm not over you

((89))
Life is beautiful
when you learn
how to love pain

((88))
& sometimes I don’t even give a fuck
about this world that is made up of
drama & stupid guys lying

((87))
You hurt me once,
shame on you.
You hurt me twice,
shame on me

((86))
There’s an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in

((85))
Im sorry;;
for being alive sometimes
Im sorry;;
for breathing
Im sorry;;
for loving you
Im sorry;;
for being me
Im sorry;;
for being in this family
Im sorry;;
for joining that team
Im sorry;;
for the drugs I do
Im sorry;;
for all I drink
Im sorry;;
for wanting to be perfect
Im sorry;;
for the cuts and scars
But you see there's nothing I can do
Maybe you can help me

((84))
I’ll be fine.
It’s not the first time.
Just like the last time,
but a little worse

((76))
The next time you think
you are falling in love
smash your head into the wall
it will hurt less in the end

((75))
So bring on the hurt,
I deserve this pain.
Let me drown in my sorrow
& die in my shame

((74))
It only hurts when you
start pretending it doesn't

((73))
Have another drink
and drive yourself home
I hope there's ice on all the roads
and you can think of me
when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your
head goes through the windshield

((72))
You were only given this life
because you're strong
enough to live it

((71))
She sits in a corner
singing herself to sleep
wrapped around promises
that no one seems to keep

((70))
A shot to kill the pain,
A pill to drain the shame,
A purge to stop the gain,
A cut to break the vein,
A smoke to ease the crave,
A drink to win the game;
an addiction’s an addiction
because it always hurts the same

((69))
Aren't you so romantic.
Telling everyone how
hopeless in love you are.
Wearing your heart on your sleeve.
Darling, you're an excuse to get hurt

((68))
I swallowed all the pills
stuck the needle in my arm
felt my baby die inside
and then turned to self-harm

((67))
You can take the razor from her hand
but you can't take the pain from her heart

((66))
Another Cutter, Another Freak,
Another Dork, Another Geek,
Another Prep, Another Jock,
Another Whore & More Punk Rock.
Another Hater, Another G.
Another Scar They Put On Me,
Another Label Happens To Fall.
When No One Really Knows
The Person At All

((65))
If tears made you pretty
I'd be fucking Beautiful

((64))
Smile for the camera. you
look so pretty pretending
nothing's wrong

((63))
And when you slammed
the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me

((62))
I’m more scars than skin

((61))
The bad thing about a girl
with a broken heart
is that she starts to hand
out the pieces
to anyone who comes around

((60))
The sad thing is that you
can still love someone
and be wrong for them

((59))
I’ve spent so much time
trying to fix your life
that I forgot about mine

((58))
And everyday I'm losing hope.
And each minute that passes by
gives me another reason to give up

((57))
Turn on the shower
lock the door
fall upon the tile
and cry once more
grab a towel
damp the sounds
don't let a soul hear
that you're breaking down

((56))
So now I cut these loveless wrists
My head sure hurts today
I'll take another twenty pills
and try to make my troubles go away

((55))
Fuck all the boys that made me cry
fuck all the lies you tried to hide
fuck all the moments we shared
fuck all the I love yous,
its not like you ever cared

((54))
Everyone has problems;
it’s how you deal with
them, that separates you
from everybody else

((53))
I hurt myself today to see if I still feel.
I focus on the pain;
the only thing that's real

((52))
She says she’s fine
but she’s going insane
she says she feels good
but she’s in a lot of pain
she says its nothing
but its really a lot
she says she’s okay
but really she’s not

((51))
Sometimes it's easier
to act like you don't care,
than to admit that it's killing you

((50))
Don't fall in love with him;
come on,
why do you think they call it
falling anyways?

((49))
Some people are just born
with tragedy in their blood

((48))
It takes a person nine months
to be born.
So why does it only take
a few seconds to die?

((47))
The only thing worse than a
broken heart is knowing
you'd give anything for a another chance

((46))
Oh boy;
you took the "L" out of lover.
& now its just. Over.

((45))
This cuts for you mom who tortured me
and led me into thinking I was wrong
This ones for you dad who isolated me
and treated me like a disease
This ones for you counselor for not
seeing past my fake smile
This ones for you sisters for no
realizing mom and dad weren't helping
This ones for you brothers for not
protecting me from myself.
This ones for you physiatrist for making me
think I was a science project
This ones for you friends who never
took the time to understand me anyway
This ones for me and with it
comes my final breath

((44))
I carved your name into the bullet
so that everyone would know
you were the last thing
to go through my mind

((43))
The sharper the edge,
the cleaner the wound.
So I’ll be keeping it dull tonight,
for I deserve to be hurt

((42))
Goodbye drama.
Hello to I don’t give a fuck

((41))
Be strong now
because things will get better.
It might be stormy now,
But it can't rain forever

((40))
& if I bleed,
I’ll bleed knowing you don't care
& if I sleep just to dream of you
I’ll wake without you there

((39))
I'm blocking everything out again
because it's so much easier than feeling

((38))
Take a look in the mirror;
tell me, what do you see?
I’d take a bullet for you,
but you'd put a bullet through me

((37))
Forget about perfect,
I was trying not to be worthless

((36))
You think you want to die,
but in reality,
you just want to be saved

((35))
F.E.A.R:
Fuck Everything And Run

((34))
People say they wish they had a
happy ending, I wish I had a story

((33))
Letting go shows nothing
but strength

((32))
And there are times when you
don’t want to wake up
because you know
that reality hurts

((31))
And the truth will hurt,
when you've been lied
to your whole life

((30))
I'm just a fucked up girl
Living a fucked up life
In a fucked up world
With a fucking knife.
Welcome to my world;
Where being me is never enough

((29))
Do the world a favor,
stop cutting your arms
and slit your throat

((28))
As I drag the sharp blade across
my clean, cold wrist, I feel no pain.
I think nothing then wishing to drop dead.
I see the blood dripping onto
the nice white perfect carpet,
And realize how w.o.r.t.h.l.e.s.s I am

((27))
If a guy doesn’t
want to be friends
after he broke your heart,
it means he loves you too much,
or he never loved you from the start

((26))
By the end of our romance,
My wrists were covered with scars

((25))
I’m too depressed to go on
You’ll be sorry when I’m gone

((24))
Wounded people are dangerous-
they know they can survive

((23))
Depression;
a fancy word to say
you're dying inside

((22))
Its hard to learn from your mistakes,
when mistakes are all you've ever made

((21))
She's so glamorous
in that heart-broken,
shattered spirit,
dead on the inside
kinda way

((20))
She lived like a murder
but she died like suicide

((19))
If one day you wake up
and find that I'm not there
I promise you can find your name
carved in my wrists

((18))
People don’t die from suicide,
They die from sadness

((17))
She cuts her wrists to watch it bleed
hoping someone will save her

((16))
Slit wrists,
And a broken heart,
everyone watches,
as my world falls apart

((15))
The sharpest lives are
the deadliest to lead

((14))
It's hard to have no one care
how your day was.
It's hard to have no one
want to hold you when you feel alone.
It's hard not to have someone
to love the person you are.
When you don't

((13))
I cut myself and let it flow,
let it bleed so you can see that you
and me were meant to be

((12))
You think seeing my scars is tough?
Try being the one who makes them

((11))
Twinkle, Twinkle
Drop of blood
How I long to be
up above
Watching over
all my friends
Once my life
comes to an end
Sparkle, Sparkle
Razor blade
Grant my wish,
take me away

((10))
Pain doesn’t hurt
when it’s all you’ve ever felt

((9))
Another day like this
Could be the end of me

((8))
Hello darkness my old friend,
I've come to talk to you again

((7))
Loose hold on life.
Strong grip on the trigger

((6))
Cutting isn’t something you do for fun,
It’s a relief when you have nowhere to run

((5))
Did you ever dream of
The sirens of the ambulance
waking up in the emergency room
and hearing the doctors say
"she isn't going to make it"
just so you could find out who really
cared about you

((4))
I’m sorry if I’m giving up too easily
I just don’t have the strength
to fight anymore

((3))
She just can't seem to get away
But she's not scared, no
She slit her wrists to cure the pain

((2))
But sometimes acting happy
Makes you hurt that much more

((1))
Real beauty is loving yourself
And that’s something
she could never do